It happens every year with varying degrees of intensity. While everyone else is excitedly comparing costumes and planning Thanksgiving road trips I am pining for home. But is it home anymore? Let’s put it this way I wish I was in England with friends and family. But do I still have friends in England? I’ve been here for 12 years now and a lot has changed. Lives move on. What is it that I really miss? Is it the familiarity and security of where I grew up? Is it my family that has almost doubled in size since I left? Would I really move back if the opportunity presented itself or is it just a fleeting moment of seeing it all through rose tinted spectacles?
Every year I go back to the UK for a couple of weeks and I have a fabulous time – then I’m ready to get back here. So if I went back to England would I miss the US the same way? Would it be fair to uproot the children? Could I go back knowing my Husband has zero desire to go back? What would we do for a living given our business is here? I ask myself the same questions every year and feel more and more backed into a corner. It’s the eternal conundrum. The longer we stay here the more roots we have here, and the more I miss England. Can I have my cake and eat it please? I sometimes feel like I’m skating the surface of life, avoiding getting in too deep with friendships or communities – because that would just make moving back even tougher no? Is it time to accept Atlanta as home and stop dipping my toe in and go skinny dipping exposing all to everyone? Answers on a postcard please.
On a lighter note we went to Abattoir last night to celebrate MM’s birthday. It all went well and fun was had up until the main course arrived. I ordered hanger steak – yum – errr not so much – it was covered in a rich hollandaise sauce. So in my very British manner what did I do? I wittered on about it to MM instead of returning it to the Chef, after all I got what I ordered. Next time I’ll go for the beet salad.
I did have a new outift to wear – the AllSaints Amei dress in petrol is fabulous – so comfy and easy to wear. It has two ties inside it that you tie behind your neck so you can adjust the length of the drape at the front and wear it tunic length or longer. It was chilly yesterday so I layered it over an H&M vest/dress in black. After seeing Doesmybumlook40 in her Dorothy Perkins coated jeggings I discovered they do free shipping to the US and ordered a pair before there was a rush on them. As she says they are fabulously comfortable and felt really dressy. I wore the pony hair Nine West Haywire shoe boots, and then topped it all off with the Boden leather jacket from back in the sale and my Zara camo scarf.